Boy or Girl???

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Doctor's Appointment...16 week checkup

So hubby didn't come with me to this appointment because I knew it would be a quick appointment and he heard baby's heartbeat the day prior so we did find it necessary. So anyways, my daddy called me that morning to see how I was doing and wanted to know if I needed a ride to the appointment or if I was up to driving. I told him I would call him back when I woke from my nap. Well I was feeling a whole lot better than the previous day so I told him I would drive myself.

Trip to the ER

Hopefully this will be the first and last trip that I need to take to the ER while I’m pregnant…So here it goes. On Tuesday night I started to get a cold. I was congested, coughing, and head a congested headache. I woke up Wednesday morning and went to a meeting and my boss told me that if I needed to call out on Thursday then please do not hesitate because she would cover for me. At the time, I didn’t think I would have a need to call out because at the moment I only had a headache. So anyway, that night I was sure to take some Robitussin for the coughing and around 3am in the morning I awakened because my stomach was very tight and uncomfortable. I felt “extremely full” like I had just ate way more than I could handle, but I had been asleep for hours so that was definitely not the case.

Deep longing for love...random thoughts

Last night was a pretty random night. I decided to go through my journals that dated as far back as 1999 and up to I was a senior in High School. After reading several excerpts, I quickly realized my deep longing for love. Every entry that I read was centered around a boy. I think saying that I was simply “boy crazy” would not give the full picture as to why my world was centered around boys, so I won’t use that term. But one thing I know for fact, is my deep longing for love. As I read my journals last night, I remembered how I always felt like a part of me was missing. I’m not sure why I felt that way but I think that feeling also rooted in the longing to be loved. So as I read these journal entries, I became that little girl/teenage girl all over again because I remember those feelings of hurt and disappointment. Now that I’m pregnant, I think a lot about the mother that I want to be. 

Doctor's Appointment...12 week checkup

So we had our 12 week checkup on Friday. It was a fairly quick appointment and my mother accompanied us. On the way to the doc's appointment I really felt like that would be the day I vomited. I ate a breakfast sandwich...well I partially ate it...and then I started feeling very queasy. So I drove with a bag in my lap just in case...luckily, nothing happened. So anyway, we got there and they took my weight. I gained a good ol' pound. That made me a little nervous. I don't feel like I've been eating enough and actually I proved myself to be right today because I tracked my calories, and sure enough I'm not eating enough. So I'm perplexed as to what to do at this moment... anyway, nurse asked a few questions and then asked me to lay back and lift my shift...Woah, faster than I thought. I looked behind to my hubby and asked if he were ready? Well I asked him to record it so we could have it for later and he did. So it took the nurse like 50 seconds to find Sweet Pea's heartbeat and she was bumping at 162 bpm. She said she was still below my pelvic bone and that's why it took awhile. I said, woah, it dropped and she laughed and reassured me that everything was fine and that baby's heartbeat would drop some more. Later hubby confided that he was a little nervous when it took the nurse so long to find the heartbeat but I wasn't nervous at all because I knew that baby was in there. So anyway, soon after our doctor came inside. She said everything looked great and baby was doing great. I asked her if it was ok that I only gained a pound and she said that was totally fine because some women actually lose weight in their first trimester. She also said by my next appointment I should gain about 4 pounds or so. I asked her about her induction procedure and she said with first time moms she tries to let baby come out when they are ready but statistics show that past 42 weeks baby has a slim chance of coming on their own. She said if baby isn't here she would induce in the 41st week. I asked her where my uterus was and she pressed down on my tummy (it actually hurt) and right below my belly button was where she said the top of the uterus was and she also pressed down to show where baby was. It was a quick appointment and then we all left. I scheduled my 16 week appointment and my 20 week appointment. That is on April 26 and we will get to find out the sex of the baby...I'm too excited...and can't wait...

Week 6...in the snow

First Announcement

Chris told me that we would tell pastor on Friday after service. By this time, I was tired of arguing so I didn't object. And sure enough when service was over, he walked to pastor and asked if we could meet with his wife and him. Pastor said that he needed to get his daughter but it's ok. I quickly intercepted and said, "It's alright pastor, we can meet with you later". But that didn't work and he said oh no, come on. So we all walked to his office and we sat in front of the two of them. And then pastor asked what was going on. I can't remember verbatim what my husband said but it was along the lines of, "my wife is expecting!". Pastor and First Lady both congratulated us and my husband quickly added, "but we are not telling anyone else yet".  So they agreed to not say anything and my husband said, "she's 4 weeks". And I corrected him (in hindsight I don't think I should have) and said, "actually I'm 5 weeks. Our first appointment is on Feb 1 and then we will get an ultrasound done and make sure baby is doing good". We also told them that we hadn't even told our parents yet.

Some how, I mentioned to First Lady that I didn't want to work after the baby was born. And she added that if you can do that, it will be so fulfilling and it's a wonderful thing. And pastor hurried and added but the two of you need to discuss it because finances are the number one reason for break-ups. He was totally right by adding that in it. So hubby and I've been talking about that a lot lately. I've wanted to be a stay-at-home mom to my children since before I can remember. Not indefinitely, but ideally until they start Preschool. At that age, they can tell mommy and daddy if someone hurt them whereas if they are small, they cannot voice it. And I want nothing more than to be able to protect my children. 

So anyway, this subject has definitely been up for quite a lot of discussion. We both have valid reasons and I pray that the Lord will lead us in this decision.

Daddy loves you!

I am surely falling deeper in love with my husband as the days pass by. He is so excited about this "appleseed" I have inside of me right now. Before he leaves in the morning for work or before he goes to sleep, he leans down to my belly and rubs it and says, "Daddy loves you". I have informed him that baby won't develop ears until week 6 and they won't begin to hear us until around week 16, but he doesn't care. I wanted to finish watching a movie that we started (Heat) and my husband objected because, "I don't want baby to hear all of that vulgar language". haha!!

BFP!!

So I received my BFP (big fat positive) on Sunday. It was totally weird and I was so not expecting it to go down like that...

Hubby's face is like that because he was disgusted that I had a "pee stick" near his face lol.